there's nobody i can talk to.
i am alone.

(DISCLAMER: THE CHARACTERS ARE GIVEN A PSEUDONYM TO PROTECT THEIR PRIVACY. THE RECOUNTS ARE TRUE TO ME. I DON' T GIVE A DAMN IF YOU EVER FIND OUT WHO THEY ARE. THERE'S NOTHING I CAN, AND WILL DO ABOUT IT. IT'S MY OPINION.)

i used to think that i have the bestest friends in the world.
i guess i have been proved wrong, some how.
H, N, D and K.

H- H's too busy with stuff. stuff that doesn't include me. how long since I have last heard H's voice. forever, probably.

N- N's nice and everything. the problem is we see so less of each other. sometimes we talk over the phone, but that's it.

D- what makes me think that D will sit down and listen to me spill the beans(pun intended)? D, again is too busy with stuff which does not include me.

K- aahh. the one which i have most doubts about. i realised K is totally superfical, and what K cares is only the appearance. how many darned things has K been keeping from me? who knows. i still remember how K enjoys making snide comments about anything in particular, especially me. I can't stand K's attitude of hot and cold.

i know i sound emo and all that.
i can't help it.
how will YOU feel if you have just realised your friends are not what you think they are(totally awesome, trustworthy and blah blah blah)?

those little things inside me.
i have been thinking who should i relate to, but i realised, hey!, none of them!
i can totally imagine their reaction individually if i told them.
(?!?!?!, really?, so?, ..., respectively)


there's nobody i can talk to.
i am alone.

music: cai hong-jay chou


omgomgomg!
i now own jay's newest album, wo hen mang!
it was supposed to be my b'day present from liren, nicky, zanelle and lynette.
i waited so long, kays?
thanks guys! (although only nicky paid me)

i love ALL of the songs inside luhh.
all are awesome!
my fave is cai hong. :DD
heehee :D

sian.
choir concert is on 30 Nov, in PLMGS.
vicki won't be there, sad sad.
:(

pics to go along with the last day of school!

another one, this time, lynette tried to kiss yonghan. hehehs.

106 rocks!

the last day of school doesn't feel like the last day at all.
i guess it's cos we still have to come back for choir practice, every week.
sian.

anyway, i am not going to start complaining how my life's so boring, predictable, etc etc.

we had mini farewell party on friday!
the surprise which Ms Lim and Mrs Ho had planned.
lynette and i kind of knew.
we took a few class photos, and after that, esther went snapping pics of people individually, or with their cliques.
we had ice-cream! yay!

earlier, ms lim said that mrs ho and she will not be teaching us next year.
lyn, vicki, yh and i were like "yes-ing".
but, ms lim had to make a touching speech about us, and we were so touched, that we couldn't help but feel a little sad.
oh man.

&& everybody except weijian wore the class tee.
yay.
tell you something.
i don't really love the design of the tee.
first of all, it's lime green, and it practically screams "SAVE EARTH!".
next, there are no pictures.
next, the words fade easily. it faded before i washed it. wow.
finally, the tee cost $16.50. there were no pics, and mostly words and mostly black.

vicki said that she doesn't think that the tee would "nai" until next year.

anyway, can you believe that we have holiday homework?!
shit.
the holidays doesn't feel like the holidays.
sian.

bye.
off to watch Tokyo Juliet.

LOVE, JEAN!

I got back ALL of my results on friday.
i guess they were pretty ok.
here are all of the results:

English: A2 (yayness!)
Maths: B3
Higher Chinese: B3 (yayness!)
Science: B3
Literature: C6 (don't blame me. i don't like lit.)
History: A2
D&T: A2
Art: B4

i am glad to announcethat i won vicki for english and chinese!
first time in this year, ha.
but i don't have A1s, so sad right.
vicki got like 92.5/100 for history. like, wow?!
i still remember, when i took my biology booklet B, i was like yoo-hoo!
17/20! haha.

jiayous to myself for next year, and get into a triple science class!
yee-ha!